Happy New Year
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maisfeekaI have a lot of hopes for this coming new year - mostly to do with hoping that things will be better.
That people will be kinder.
That governments will be more receptive to their citizens.
That people who have already suffered more than anyone should will have some relief.
Or maybe just that fate will cut all of us a little slack.
I can't say that this year has been a particularly bad one for me, but then again I can't say that it's been a particularly good or easy one for me either.
There have been many :
-The ongoing struggle with rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia
- Being sick a huge part of the time between April and mid-November
-Dealing with the fallout from and around my youngest sister's Wedding-That-Wasn't and her subsequent move to Florida
-The continuing struggle to help my 2nd sister and her three girls deal with her increasingly erratic ex-husband since her divorce became final just under a year ago
-Struggling to make ends meet without a roommate
-Realizing how isolated I have become from my friends due to my illnesses and the things I had to leave by the wayside as I deal with my illnesses and the exhaustion and pain that have come with them
There have also been some :
-Being recognized as one of the top three Community Theatre Actresses in the state
-Doing one of my dream roles with my best friend
-Being blessed with the time and resources to travel to California and spend time with my sister, her husband and my beautiful little niece
-Doing a part with a professional theatre this year and getting an *incredible* newspaper review for my performance
-Making it through my fall show with flying colors, despite my ever-increasing illness - and 2 emergency room visits, one of which made me miss for the first time ever a tech week rehearsal - and having my dad say he was blown away and had never seen me do anything like it before
-Getting through gallbladder surgery with none of the anticipated difficulties (and impressing both of my doctors, and the pre-op and OR nurses along the way!)
-Continuing to sing up at Cu Na Mara most Sundays despite my other problems and continuing to expand my repertoire (as well as being mistaken for the "Special Famous Guest Star Singer" on one notable evening)
-Maintaining strong relationships with my family members
-Managing to keep myself (relatively) financially sound on my own
-Still finding the time and energy to try to support my friends - though not nearly as much as I would have liked
- Still having an overall positive attitude and outlook on life (I must be clinically insane or something!)
I read the "Fic Year in Review" and other Fic memes sadly because I've only managed to complete 2 stories to my satisfaction - and only one of those has even gotten typed into the computer. But I've started and outlined a number of pieces - both semi-fanfic and original, okay and the one Lost piece about Locke - and hopefully as my health continues to improve (Universe willing!) I'll be able to get more done this year.
It's been a difficult, traumatic, and frightening year for many people and I'm well aware that my troubles are next to nothing when compared to many others. I just hope that this coming year will be beautiful and full of hope and opportunities for us all.
I'd also like to take the time to thank all of my LJ friends, even those I've never chatted with or exchanged more than a comment or two with. I don't know if you can understand just how blessed I feel to have you all. Some of you I feel I know very well, and others just what I know from reading your LJ, but all of you have helped me immensely.
There is something vastly comforting for me about knowing I could come online at 2 or 3 or 4 in the morning, miserable and in pain and feeling achingly alone and find *someone* that I could talk to, or whose blog I could read, or whose stories were sure to cheer me, or whose problems let me know that I *wasn't* alone in my struggles, different though they might be. I think there were times this year when that is what kept me sane and I thank you all for it.
I'll be spending New Year's alone again this year (except for my cat, of course), partly by choice and partly because that's just the way things turned out, but I know you're all out there and I'll be sure to take a minute at New Years to thank the creator, the universe, god, goddess, fate or whatever people may (or may not) believe in for having you all in my life.
Blessings and best wishes for the New Year. May you all have the best year yet!
That people will be kinder.
That governments will be more receptive to their citizens.
That people who have already suffered more than anyone should will have some relief.
Or maybe just that fate will cut all of us a little slack.
I can't say that this year has been a particularly bad one for me, but then again I can't say that it's been a particularly good or easy one for me either.
There have been many :
-The ongoing struggle with rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia
- Being sick a huge part of the time between April and mid-November
-Dealing with the fallout from and around my youngest sister's Wedding-That-Wasn't and her subsequent move to Florida
-The continuing struggle to help my 2nd sister and her three girls deal with her increasingly erratic ex-husband since her divorce became final just under a year ago
-Struggling to make ends meet without a roommate
-Realizing how isolated I have become from my friends due to my illnesses and the things I had to leave by the wayside as I deal with my illnesses and the exhaustion and pain that have come with them
There have also been some :
-Being recognized as one of the top three Community Theatre Actresses in the state
-Doing one of my dream roles with my best friend
-Being blessed with the time and resources to travel to California and spend time with my sister, her husband and my beautiful little niece
-Doing a part with a professional theatre this year and getting an *incredible* newspaper review for my performance
-Making it through my fall show with flying colors, despite my ever-increasing illness - and 2 emergency room visits, one of which made me miss for the first time ever a tech week rehearsal - and having my dad say he was blown away and had never seen me do anything like it before
-Getting through gallbladder surgery with none of the anticipated difficulties (and impressing both of my doctors, and the pre-op and OR nurses along the way!)
-Continuing to sing up at Cu Na Mara most Sundays despite my other problems and continuing to expand my repertoire (as well as being mistaken for the "Special Famous Guest Star Singer" on one notable evening)
-Maintaining strong relationships with my family members
-Managing to keep myself (relatively) financially sound on my own
-Still finding the time and energy to try to support my friends - though not nearly as much as I would have liked
- Still having an overall positive attitude and outlook on life (I must be clinically insane or something!)
I read the "Fic Year in Review" and other Fic memes sadly because I've only managed to complete 2 stories to my satisfaction - and only one of those has even gotten typed into the computer. But I've started and outlined a number of pieces - both semi-fanfic and original, okay and the one Lost piece about Locke - and hopefully as my health continues to improve (Universe willing!) I'll be able to get more done this year.
It's been a difficult, traumatic, and frightening year for many people and I'm well aware that my troubles are next to nothing when compared to many others. I just hope that this coming year will be beautiful and full of hope and opportunities for us all.
I'd also like to take the time to thank all of my LJ friends, even those I've never chatted with or exchanged more than a comment or two with. I don't know if you can understand just how blessed I feel to have you all. Some of you I feel I know very well, and others just what I know from reading your LJ, but all of you have helped me immensely.
There is something vastly comforting for me about knowing I could come online at 2 or 3 or 4 in the morning, miserable and in pain and feeling achingly alone and find *someone* that I could talk to, or whose blog I could read, or whose stories were sure to cheer me, or whose problems let me know that I *wasn't* alone in my struggles, different though they might be. I think there were times this year when that is what kept me sane and I thank you all for it.
I'll be spending New Year's alone again this year (except for my cat, of course), partly by choice and partly because that's just the way things turned out, but I know you're all out there and I'll be sure to take a minute at New Years to thank the creator, the universe, god, goddess, fate or whatever people may (or may not) believe in for having you all in my life.
Blessings and best wishes for the New Year. May you all have the best year yet!
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Date: 2004-12-31 04:46 pm (UTC)Blessings and comfort to you as well, my dear :) I have enjoyed "seeing" you on LJ ;)
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Date: 2005-01-02 06:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-31 05:59 pm (UTC)Now go write the Locke story. You know how he and his knives get when he feels neglected. *winks*
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Date: 2005-01-02 06:24 am (UTC)And I'll work on that Locke story, but Kendall, you know... not nearly as patient as Locke....
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Date: 2004-12-31 06:14 pm (UTC){{{Hugs!}}}
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Date: 2005-01-02 06:24 am (UTC)*Hugs*
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Date: 2004-12-31 07:44 pm (UTC){{{Mai}}}
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Date: 2005-01-01 06:25 am (UTC)You are an inspiration to me {{{hugs Mai}}}
Still having an overall positive attitude and outlook on life (I must be clinically insane or something!)
*LMAO* You and we both, hon!
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Date: 2005-01-02 06:27 am (UTC)Anyway, off we go to another year, all of us crazies!
*Hugs*